My pains go away after I write about them here.

Writing about my problems here truly feels magical. My suffering is relieved by this blog once I write about it. After this, I feel a lot better.

If I was in contact with Prince, I wouldn’t overthink things, but since we haven’t spoken in so many weeks, hearing from my mother causes me to feel afraid and compelled to sob uncontrollably. I prayed and manifested a lot for a prince to come into my life. Lord, please stop giving me rista phases because I don’t want any more. Instead than expecting and waiting for some rista to happen, I’d rather to be single.If my parents tell me it’s okay if I don’t get married, I won’t ever take their words too seriously because even if I do, they will be more upset than I am. It hurts me to think about things like this too much. I’m done with these things in my life, so please, god, stop. If the same things happened again, I wouldn’t live. I’ve been waiting for this day for so long, and if you harm me one more, I won’t be able to survive. I want to at least now put more of my attention on my future and family, so please god and devi maa, please give me your blessings this time, i dont want to be stuck here from so long. Please maa..