Looking at this Ring…!!
When troubles don’t arise in your relationship, it’s simple to love one another. All partnerships, however, face challenges in real life at some point. I may have learned a great deal about not loving so sincerely that you will wind up alone as a result of this test.
Days aren’t really wonderful anymore because it’s hard to know who to believe and who to ignore. In such circumstances, we come to the conclusion that we were foolish to think that love was so genuine on both sides. God really puts couples through a lot of trials to see who is the strongest, and then he brings them together so that they can eventually face their own struggles in love.
It stings when my friends who have found love claim that we struggled just as hard, but I’m not proud enough to admit it. Knowing that he would ultimately follow his parents’ wishes while I would be forced to wed a stranger, he would simply sit calmly and declare that this was our destiny, Rinku. My heart truly aches when I consider this.
Hearing him say things like, “I already did so much for us and I don’t know what more I can do,” and “I think it’s better you see the rista’s what your parents show you,” makes me want to end my life. Without him in my life, there is no purpose for me to continue living. I feel terrible that he sees me as nothing more than a “let’s marry our parents if my parents approve for you” type of person, but for me, he has always been my first priority. If he wants me, then no matter what, I’m willing to lay my life on the line for him.
When my Canadian friend called, we chatted about various topics and I just so happened to speak with her husband, who is also a classmate. Speaking with him helped me realize that efforts must be taken on both ends for a relationship to flourish. It is not enough to simply say, “I want to be with you forever,” but rather to put forward all of the justifications for our want to be together. My reason for being with him is that no one else can give me the happiness in life that I received from him. We have been together for many years, and during that time, even though we lived apart, we have been like husband and wife, doing everything together and never being apart for more than a few hours at a time. After all of this, I truly don’t want to make room in my life for another man. Although I could survive without him, I am actually quite content to remain single my entire life. I wish it were mutually beneficial on all sides, but perhaps I didn’t matter to him in the end. It hurts that he is actually prepared to leave me. It simply feels so painful in my heart how can this be easy for him, why is it so hard for me to accept this truth that I don’t mean to him anymore. I’m crying so much in anguish thinking all this, unable to eat food or drink water, and I didn’t drink even a sip of water yesterday. It really aches, Harsh. I’m not sure why, but I have a feeling that even if I commit suicide, you won’t try to find me. Why did God make me love someone like you who will ultimately only choose his family’s happiness if my life is ruined hurts so much?